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Intensity: life at the end of a project

I’m working on a project that was wrapping up this week. I could feel the tension and excitement building. While part of me is exhausted, part of me loves the finale.

Our final round of testing was conducted in an offsite test lab with restricted access. I heard the remaining people on the project team (located elsewhere) were asking for updates. (One person on the team was designated to provide outside communication.) Apparently our updates were being listened to like a sports playoff.

The final round of testing; it’s our time.

I hear about final reports, post-mortem meetings, and other project wrap-up activities but I don’t hear people talk directly about the final round from the personal perspective of excitement, tension, exhaustion, and exhilaration. Maybe at the end we’re too tired to talk?

There was one moment in particular this week when I looked up from my work and noticed our test lab. Every person and piece of equipment in the lab was humming; everyone knew what to do and how important the work we had to accomplish was. In many ways it has been a “typical” project in that we’d had changes a long the way – in fact an unexpected curve ball thrown at the team just weeks before. But we’d devised a new plan, adjusted, and kept going. And we’d had moments of agitating each other too but that’s also normal. We are human and at times we all annoy each other.

I’ve worked on enough projects to know that this one will be one of the best experiences I’ve been through. The team work has been impressive. It's a great feeling to work in a highly functioning team and to be part of a successful project.

(I would talk about how interesting and cool the product is but due to NDA restrictions, I will bypass any product details.)

I often think it you can’t deal with the end of a project and all the intensity that typically comes with the end, then testing isn’t for you. I know this sounds rude but it’s true. Testing is continually part of the intensity at the end. Some of us actually enjoy that intensity – at least enough of the time to keep repeating the cycle.

So I have to laugh because I know the next part of the cycle (after I get some sleep, eat a few hot meals, and catch up with friends). I will find new work. I’ll be learning a new product or searching fervently for information on a technology I have limited or possibly no experience with. Why? Because I avoid project work where I’m not learning something new, there has to be at least one challenge in a project to provide that thrill. I’ll go through the process of learning and move onto becoming knowledgeable and more usable. The project will ramp up, the testing will eventually hit the busy cycle, and the end will come again. And so the cycle goes.

Ok, I will order one less expresso shot in my next coffee

Pat,

Sorry for my slow response. I have been thinking about your comment since the day you posted.

I think you've raised an excellent point about intensity and driving the people around us crazy. Umm ... yeah.

My personal perspective is that if I have one life to live and time is limited and I have a choice to go through life experiencing it and feeling life along the way, I prefer to feel it versus living a flatlined existence. But there is a limit to experiencing life and its ups and downs so intensely that you become nonfunctional or overfocused on stuff which can destroy the ability to focus or to find peace.

My professional perspective relates back to my entry on Rhythm. You cannot drive faster than everyone around you without causing disruption. Keying into the tempo of a team and a project are essential - if you intend to behave as part of a team. If you drive to slow, you're not helpful. If you drive too hard, you cause disruption. However, if you get hired to drive or hired to be a change agent, then you have to take on that solo position and experience being the driver. It's a fortunate skill to be able to motivate other people but driving too hard, simply drives away.

I guess intensity is like a volume knob and being able to tune it to the environment. Versus just turning it on and off.

Thanks for pointing out the flip side of the story.

reminiscences

This reminds me of teaching. Every semester I always started out relaxed and with me having visions of all the grand things my students are going to learn. And every semester I always ended with lots of intensity and last minute wrapping up of all the details. Then, after I posted grades, the relaxing and letdown - until the next semester started.

I also remember working with someone who loved the intensity part of the project; she did things to make that part longer and more intense - and more fun for her. I finally realized that she was an adrenaline junkie when I was riding with her to the airport to catch a flight. We were early, and she still drove 20 miles over the speed limit. (We were so early that she insisted that we go out to lunch. We did, and so almost missed the plane.) The two of us did really good work together; probably lots better than either of us could have done by ourselves. She drove me to new heights and I kept her more grounded. But, I eventually couldn't handle the intensity that she wanted.

So, I see lots of upsides to intensity. I also see occasional downsides.

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